Sunday, February 24, 2008
Ok I am not liking the aging thing one bit!
This is me,no not the body I am in right now. I am really not liking aging at all! I am tired of feeling like I do and yeah looking like I do now. They really didn't tell us we would get old did they?? I think baby-boomers,(aka:Pepsi generation folks) are just finding out how bad it really can get. I don't remember thinking one day you won't be able to keep a thought more than 5 minutes,or wake up with hurting joints,or get wrinkled and fat. Oh and yes the days started with "yes mam" and went down hill from there. Amazing the tests Doc's can find to run on you and the meds to remember to take daily. I am not happy one bit at this aging process. We are next in line to die and I haven't done all the projects I've written down to do,yet. Not nearly finished it all! Where is all this high blood pressure,hypothyroid,anxiety,depression,constant dental work,weight gain no matter what you do stuff coming from? Sadly I know it will get worse,because I took care of my mom for so long. She couldn't believe it was happening to her either. One day you are young,skinny,relatively attractive(though you never thought so) banning the bomb,and angry at the world,next you are old,fat, banning the bomb, and angry at the world.
This pic was me in my 20's and too skinny,I was told,belonging to womans lib,raising a child,and still planning to move to "The Village" and be a beatnik,and write poems for Dylan to turn into songs. But I got to California that year and didn't have flowers in my hair and be a hippie and live on a commune,another plan of action.
Oh where does the time go when that person is still inside you?